Disappearence of Self

How does one stay strong in a weak economy ?
By not shopping and questioning your very existence  ?

Often times I feel invisible. Our government system / network is crazy, telling lies on the news constantly and people dumb enough to believe the lies. Our economy is not getting any better but worse.  I'm still unemployed and looking for work and looking for love, I'm starting to think I'll have a better chance at finding love. LOL

Interview after interview, salary after salary getting smaller and smaller, no wonder there is a huge following and interest in society with Tiny Homes. Because if you don't make much then you can't afford much so why live beyond your means. Makes sense, I don't need a 2500 square footage home, I'd be happy with something small that I can call my very own along with having a garden and the availability to be out in the wild with no neighbors but perhaps a lot of land big enough to have family living near by, yeah like 10 acres away. Remember I did say big lot of land, like 100 acres. LOL

In a perfect world, no one would die, we wouldn't age after reaching a certain age and there would be no hunger, no violence and we as human beings would all get along, but that's another blog for another time.

So how does one manage with maintaining self ? Remembering who you are ?
Do we fight, put up a struggle or just give in and throw away the towel ?
Often I find myself at the job interview wondering, what will I have to give up this time ?
My life as I know it ? I don't do much as it is but do I give up the friendships that I have formed over the years just to be employed ? Do I really want to work 15 hour days 6 days a week and burn in hell since the job requires me to work every Sunday and miss church service ?  Do I want to continue feeling used and abused with nothing to show for it but exhaustion ?

What are you thoughts on this topic, have you ever felt this way or are you currently going through a trial similar to this one ?


Much Love
~Hourglass