Disappearence of Self

How does one stay strong in a weak economy ?
By not shopping and questioning your very existence  ?

Often times I feel invisible. Our government system / network is crazy, telling lies on the news constantly and people dumb enough to believe the lies. Our economy is not getting any better but worse.  I'm still unemployed and looking for work and looking for love, I'm starting to think I'll have a better chance at finding love. LOL

Interview after interview, salary after salary getting smaller and smaller, no wonder there is a huge following and interest in society with Tiny Homes. Because if you don't make much then you can't afford much so why live beyond your means. Makes sense, I don't need a 2500 square footage home, I'd be happy with something small that I can call my very own along with having a garden and the availability to be out in the wild with no neighbors but perhaps a lot of land big enough to have family living near by, yeah like 10 acres away. Remember I did say big lot of land, like 100 acres. LOL

In a perfect world, no one would die, we wouldn't age after reaching a certain age and there would be no hunger, no violence and we as human beings would all get along, but that's another blog for another time.

So how does one manage with maintaining self ? Remembering who you are ?
Do we fight, put up a struggle or just give in and throw away the towel ?
Often I find myself at the job interview wondering, what will I have to give up this time ?
My life as I know it ? I don't do much as it is but do I give up the friendships that I have formed over the years just to be employed ? Do I really want to work 15 hour days 6 days a week and burn in hell since the job requires me to work every Sunday and miss church service ?  Do I want to continue feeling used and abused with nothing to show for it but exhaustion ?

What are you thoughts on this topic, have you ever felt this way or are you currently going through a trial similar to this one ?


Much Love
~Hourglass

People

what is the deal with people these days.

People

Strange People - Rudeness or just Disrespectdful

Strange People

 

My most recent tail is from an encounter with this dumb ass fat ugly looking white man.

He looked like he was 9 months pregnant and obliviously didn't care about his appearance to the public.

 

On my way to a job interview I stepped into the elevator and could smell the pizza in the air. After seeing the pizza delivery guy, I said to him jokingly  "Im gonna follow you because you have pizza" he turned and said I'll bring you some if  there is any left over.

 

Of course it being early morning at the time the wheels in my head were not "turning" completely

enough for me to think how would he be able to do that being that he is the delivery guy. So he said he'd give me his number and said, no, let me take your number and I'll call you. Not thinking I said sure, he asked me how long I would be and I said oh just 20 - 30 minutes since it's just a brief interview to reactivate.  I went to my interview and didn't think anything about it.

An hour later I finally get out of interview and thought to myself  "Oh man, I missed out on getting some free pizza".

 

Moving on I ran some errands and headed back to the county that I lived in.

Well about 5 hours later he calls and says sorry I didn't get to call you earlier I was busy with work.

No problem I said.

Well soon after he says "I noticed you have a big butt" I was like what ?

He said I noticed when you walked in the elevator, are you into that ?

That was my que to hang up the phone but I didn't due to being in shock

He continues, are you into that ? I was again What ????

Then the famous line "do you live alone" Me What ???????

Him, I live in my recording studio, would you like a roommate ? Me what ?

Him, so do you want company tonight ? Me What the ????

I told him, I am born again Christian and no one is getting my cookies until our wedding night.

I want a god fearing man. He asked What does that mean ?  Yes another clue for me to hang up

Me, a man who believes in god and goes to church.

Him, well we can still have sex like everyone else is.

I thought to myself and if everyone was jumping off a bridge, would you be inclined to join in ? Geese!!

 

Then he throws in what he must of thought would be the key word to close the deal....

All my past girlfriends have been black and I only date black women.

So he continues on... so when can we get together ? Next week, the week after ?

I finally whispered into the phone "The Twelfth of Never" !

 

OMG, I was in shock for a couple of days, just met the guy and he's already planning on having sex with me, no dinner or nothing and that very evening!

 

I dressed professional for my job interview but for someone to think that I'm just a hoe and not worthy of a meal or "getting to know" basis and just think he's gonna get lucky on the first brief meeting just floored me.

 

Am I alone ?

Are all men walking around with this kind of mentality ? Seriously ?

Where are the real men, the old fashioned type of men that respect women and are fine with waiting until the night of the wedding to make love to their bride ? Are they non-existent ?

 

 

Life Little Glitches

OMG, Where do I begin..........................

It's 2013 and I'm still seeking full time permanent employment.
My family is still and even more dysfunctional then the past years so I'm assuming that the world will be ending soon and that our Lord Jesus will be showing up to claim his people. Gosh, I sure hope so because this unemployment mess is just awful.

Aww, so much tell and not sure where to begin.

Yes for me blogging is like writing in my diary but it's open to the public.
Mmmm, is it wise to be writing your true thoughts and feelings on line ? Oh heck why not, it's not like people can track you down and the picture on your profile is really your picture or not. So many hide behind others photos claiming to be the person in the photo and some are actually not or maybe they were like 20 years ago but you don't find that out until you meet them!  LOL

Another year and another job lay off.
I have to say it's really hard to stay positive and cheerful in these economic times.
My heart is still in Texas where I left it last year.
I hear now that Houston is the place to go to in order to start over.
I liked San Antonio because out of the entire state of Texas, it is said to be the most economical affordable place to live. The cost of living is reasonable along with gas, food and just about everything else.

But for a single woman with her mind set on finding "Mr Right" is that possible in Texas.
Should she give up the idea of finding that God Fearing Man in the Flavor of Latin or just settle
for Chocolate.

Oh I'm just blah blah blan blabbing.

On to my next tail that will have you laughing :0)

Manners, Oh where have they gone ?

Man oh Man. 2012 started off with big hopes and dreams for me, only for all them to be mashed.
I haven't given up hope yet. I look forward to taking a road trip soon, but since my last employer is now blocking me on my unemployment, looks like my trip will have to be put on hold.

Anyways, it's just another day that I'm above ground and chilling at the library with strangers who are farting, coughing and acting as if their sitting in their own homes.

Man, has society changed so much to where no one has curiosity anymore ?
They cut you off on the freeway when your driving. Flip you off at the stop light just because and it makes me wonder, where do these type of people come from ? Honestly ? Plant Stupid.

I found a T-shirt today and just had to buy it. It has all kinds of sayings for the replacement for "Idiot"
like, "He's a few batteries short of working", "Smarter than fresh bait" or my favorite "he's 2 feet short of a short bridge", etc etc. I was laughing so hard at the 99 cent store that people were starting to think that I might be a little "off".

It's Memorial weekend and all I'm thinking about is grabbing down on a Hebrew National Hot Dog (they are the best, no preservatives or additives folks) some Ruffles potato chips (yes, I gotta have my ridges) and Orange Crush (yes, I'm old school, what can I say).

Life is short, so enjoy it.  As for the weirdos here in the library, I'll just start wearing a gas mask and as for the dummies on the freeway, I may get a sticker made for my car saying "You Never know who your dealing with, I suggest you think Twice before cutting me off" or "My glove compartment is packed with a bullets with you name on it, don't make me use them"  LMAO.

Peace and Blessings

Keeping Your Promises for 2012 ?

Wow, every new year comes and goes and with every year, my goals and wishes end up going down the drain and rolling over into the next year and then the next. My plans for 2012, is making it a point to keep follow through on my goals, whether they be Spiritual, Emotional, Physical, etc. , and not to let them slide away as I did in the previous years.

Funny thing is, I was thinking to myself today, "Wow, I'm really doing well with the follow through on the goals I set for myself this new year." I'm eating healthier, walking more, drinking more water, seeing the inches slide off, but still there seems to be something missing from my life. Suddenly, I realized that I'm the owner of my own destiny and unless I start making a way for things to happen, I'm not moving forward.
So far I've done well working on the goals I have set for 2012. :)

Have you done the same ?